I have been accused many a time of trying to be everything to everyone, and I suppose a little tattoo somewhere subtle (like my forehead maybe) with the words 'take care of yourself first' could go some way towards fixing the problem. Or I could just do what I normally do anyway, which is consider myself, and then consider that myself would be happy if I can make the situation as happy as is humanly possible for all parties involved.

I think I've walked a fine line here, but I think it's as good as it gets. I talked to the Boy's mum, and the call was not bad at all. She was really happy to hear from me, and she was relatively rational. I told her about my plans for next year without trying to obscure or soften anything. It should change the plotting in her head about how she's going to get us back together.

The thing with the Boy is that I adore him, and he truly is my best friend... and from time to time these days, I find myself even hoping that a year apart will be good for 'us', though more often than not I am more inclined to believe that once I get overseas I probably won't come back for a very long time. I don't know what the future will bring, but as far as things go with the Boy, I am happy. We have a great relationship right now, and if he remains my good friend then things will remain great. I guess I found this when I was breaking up with the Tall Guy aswell - his family saw the only happy ending as us eventually working things out, whereas because we ended up terrific friends we thought we had the happy ending already. I'm sure that the Boy's family is operating in this mode to some extent, and I can understand that, it will just take time... and I suppose when there is a chance even now that the Boy and I could end up together, no one knows what's going to happen... we all just have to be as open minded as possible.

So I'm going to Sydney for a few days, from the 19th to the 25th. On the 26th I will head up to Woodford as planned, while the Boy will remain in Sydney until the 31st and then join me at Woodford. I feel really happy with this plan... I know that I am doing the best that I can for the other people around me without compromising what I want to do (eg going to the Woodford Festival). All I was going to be doing from 19-25 was bumming around here anyway. I know the Boy's mum would like me to stay for the whole time, but if I'm going to compromise, so is she :)

It works, I'm happy with it. Now, if only we could find someone to look after the cat from the 26th onwards...

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