They keep you from falling down, don't you think that you need them now?

2004-12-06 6:59 p.m.

I was just thinking about how sometimes I sign an email 'xo', which generally people would interpret to mean a hug and a kiss, but whenever I do I am thinking of the Elliot Smith song Waltz #2 and the line "XO Mom, it's okay, it's alright, nothing's wrong"... so I kind of feel like what I am trying to say to the person is 'it's okay, it's alright, nothing's wrong' in some lame and probably futile attempt at reassuring them that things will be fine... but that's what I think. It's a hug and a kiss and an 'it's okay, it's alright, nothing's wrong'.

I just got an email back from Woodford. I'm top of the waiting list for the job that I had if anyone drops out, which I have been told is pretty inevitable... so it's not certain, but there is a strong chance that I may be going to Woodford after all. Things are looking promising.

Good thing if I get the job back, and hence the free season pass and camping... I was already starting to count the pennies to see if I could afford to buy one, but the answer to that is probably no. And I know I shouldn't hope for someone to drop out, but...

I hope someone drops out and I get to go.

Before After

© Blueshoe 1999-2005

 

Just now, I'm...

Living: Takasaki City, Gunma, Japan
Working: As an English teacher
Studying: Colloquial Japanese
Wearing: jeans, hoodie
Listening: Hedwig and the Angry Inch sountrack
Gigging: ??
Reading: 'Thus Spoke Zarathustra' by Freidrich Nietszche, Japan Lonely Planet, 'Maria Montessori: Her Life and Work' by E.M. Standing, 'The Godplayers' by Damien Broderick, 'Bloodcurdling Tales of Horror and the Macabre', HP Lovecraft
Consuming: mmmm, awesone boyfriend cooked dinner...
Feeling: happy