Well, yesterday and today I have had a new experience, something I've never known before, and for no apparent reason - incredible back pain. I woke up yesterday feeling like I must have been lying on the Boy's arm overnight, stiff and sore, but I thought that's all it was. It got progressively worse throughout the afternoon and by night I was crying, it hurt more to lie down than to stand up and I have no idea how I even slept at all...

Anyway, turns out that a rough night may be all it was, I went to the doctor this morning and no slipped discs or anything, he said I wouldn't have the amount of mobility that I do if that were the case (never mind the fact that I'm about five times slower than usual) and that my muscles were definitely spasming but it should resolve within a couple of days... so I've got anti-inflammatories, panadol and a heat pack. I tell you what though, for the amount of pain that I am in I feel like it ought to be more severe really.

It has got me thinking though... at 24, such a thing is not good for anyone, but especially for someone who has been fit their whole life. It's been nearly a year since I stopped going to yoga and basically took up a sedentary lifestyle (bar the occasional rock-climbing trip)... man, I have got to start exercising again. It's no wonder my body is falling apart, my muscles are probably wasting away.

The back thing is just contributing an excuse to my over-riding sense of lethargy lately. I should be catching up with friends, people that I'm not going to see for another year or so, but I just can't find the energy or the motivation to do so. I'm pretty much just bumming around, letting life go by... I can't seem to find the enthusiasm for anything at the moment. I don't know what to do with myself, I just feel like life is passing me by and I'm just sitting here watching it happen.

Hopefully in a couple of days I will have recovered from this back thing and from four weeks of 6am starts at work and maybe things will be better... maybe I should just eat better and exercise. I don't know. I don't have the will for anything just now.

Bah... gonna go be mopey elsewhere now.

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