They keep you from falling down, don't you think that you need them now?

2005-06-14 1:43 a.m.

Holy fuck. I think I just did it.

I think it might have been amicable.

It was the last entry... I couldn't sleep. And then, I saw he was still online. So I asked him the question - about how often did he think we would not work? Could he put a percentage on it?

He did. 50%. Same as I did.

And so we agreed that a relationship that both parties believed would only work approximately half of the time was probably not a good one.

I need to sleep, or vomit, or cry, or maybe all of those. I'm not feeling so great about myself just now.

Before After

© Blueshoe 1999-2005

 

Just now, I'm...

Living: Takasaki City, Gunma, Japan
Working: As an English teacher
Studying: Colloquial Japanese
Wearing: jeans, hoodie
Listening: Hedwig and the Angry Inch sountrack
Gigging: ??
Reading: 'Thus Spoke Zarathustra' by Freidrich Nietszche, Japan Lonely Planet, 'Maria Montessori: Her Life and Work' by E.M. Standing, 'The Godplayers' by Damien Broderick, 'Bloodcurdling Tales of Horror and the Macabre', HP Lovecraft
Consuming: mmmm, awesone boyfriend cooked dinner...
Feeling: happy